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Just Play
This past week, I watched a live session from Effy on the full moon in Leo as she worked on an art piece. My art journey started back in April or May of last year. It’s very easy for me to be critical of the work I’m doing and compare myself to people like Effy, Tamara and Toni or the countless of other people who are following their tutorials. Effy touched on this when she made a comment about looking…
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Acrylics, art, blog, dealing with life, divorce, divorce, marriage, mixed media, separation, Thoughts, Thoughts, watercolor
Santa Cruz
A couple of months after the ex and I started dating, we went on a week-end trip to Santa Cruz. I was still living at home and told my parents that I was spending the night at my girlfriend’s house. He had a motorcycle, so I rode on the back with my arms around his waist as we zipped around the corners through the mountain on Highway 17. It was the first time I spent the night with him. (I…
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Acrylics, art, colored pencils, dealing with life, divorce, marriage, meanderings, mixed media, poetry, Thoughts, watercolor
Random Thoughts 1162021
1. It’s been a while since I’ve sat down to write any poetry. And I’m ashamed to admit that I’ve never owned any poetry written by Mary Oliver. This past week, I purchased her book “Devotions” as well as the book of poems from Kate Baer called “What Kind of Woman” from Powell’s Books in Portland. I’m diving into the lusciousness that are words on paper that make you feel all the feels. 2. Yesterday’s was my (new) husband’s 70th…
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Wants and Obsessions
It’s weird how the universe works. That saying that there are no coincidences seems more and more profound to me. Right now, I’m doing a program called Moonshine, which is an art witchery program. To me, it’s another path of exploring my spirituality and one that I’ve been interested in for a long time. It’s been a want of mine and I’m finally doing it. Which brings me to today’s post. One of the first activities I engaged in was…
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Release
This is a hard time of year, even though it’s also a good time for me in my life. I’m with someone who adores me and is good for me and to me in many ways. We are working on creating memories together. This is our second Christmas spent together and it’s been nice. Simple and sweet. I really, really miss my kids and my grandkids. I think my kids would say that their Christmases were pretty good over the…
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Journal Prompt #2
I’ve written previously here about the journal prompts done by Effy Wild. So today’s blog post is an attempt to answer the prompt. Her prompts have three parts. The first part is usually art related, which I haven’t done (but may in the future). The second part is writing, so I’m doing that part today. She breaks it down like this: Prompt (art), Ponder (writing), Quote – which is a quote she provides in contexts of the previous two sections.…
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three years
Today marks the third year of the day that I made my first attempt to end my life. My life as I knew it was ending. I had no way of knowing at the time how differently beautiful my life would become. I felt completely alone and the only way out that I could see was to end the intense pain I was feeling. I just wanted that pain to end. I remember taking my pills that were meant to…
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Meanderings 1
We celebrated Thanksgiving again this year by ourselves. It was our second one together and I was hoping that we wouldn’t be repeating last year’s Thanksgiving of it just being us. Thanks to COVID and people not adhering to the guidelines, here we are. That being said, I was surprised to learn the impact I have had on our traditional Thanksgiving dinners when all of our family was able to get together. There are two dishes I used to make…
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Journal Prompt #1
As I’ve written previously, I started on a creative journey pretty soon after the pandemic hit and we all went into lockdown. (I also turned to gardening, so I’ll probably write about that on here as well. Our tomatoes went crazy and I’ve also turned to canning in order to keep up with my crazy tomato plants!) Like crocheting, I have found painting to be a very meditative process. It allows me to focus on something other than the many…
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You did something you’re not proud of
(This may trigger some who are new to this journey of a run-away husband or a cheating spouse.) Does the title of this post make you think of maybe someone who did something embarrassing in a kind of “ha, ha, I can’t believe I did that,” kind of way? What if I told you it was from someone who labels herself as a “divorce coach” who helps people who cheated come to terms with cheating? And wants the person who…
