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When friendships fade
I have very few girlfriends. My closest female relationships are to my mom, my daughter and my cousin. I envy women who seem to have bountiful, strong female relationships. During my first marriage, I spent a lot of time raising a family, going to school, and working. Developing long-term friendships was hard because my time was so limited. Also my…
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Mish Mash
1. My Oculus Quest 2 arrived yesterday. It took a little bit of time to set-up, but over all the process was relatively easy and smooth. I am blown away by the graphics on this piece of equipment. It feels very immersive and mind-blowingly real. I danced with a robot and exercised with a fitness trainer yesterday. I was thinking…
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Dreams
Most days I’m content in my new life. I feel very fortunate to have met and married someone who values and cherishes me. This marriage is new and a very small slice of my life. When you have been with someone since you were a very young woman and grew up with that other person and yes, probably outgrew them…
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Playing in dirt and the joy of canning
Last year, about a month or so into the pandemic, we decided to take up gardening. I purchased a raised garden bed, we purchased bags of dirt and chicken poop, and a variety of starter plants, like zucchini, tomatoes, cantaloupe, bell peppers, and strawberries. Everything grew well enough to give me the idea that maybe I could actually grow some…
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Nature is a curative
Some days this pandemic makes me cranky. I’m in a new marriage. I moved in with my new husband in November 2019. The pandemic hit in the early part of 2020 and we were in lockdown by March 2020. So we have been with each other 24/7 pretty much since then. It’s a test to many relationships, but I think…
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Getting back to normal
Yesterday in a word felt normal. I went out into the world by myself to do shopping for Easter and for my boys who have birthdays about a week apart. I went into Ulta to buy some of my favorite products and spent more than I was planning because it felt so indulgent. Tomorrow morning I will drive with my…
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beautiful creatives
Just so you know, dear reader, I’m partaking in a blogging challenge. Do you remember those, when blogs were all the rage back in the early aughts? This one is led by Effy Wild and runs through the month of April. I do hope you’ll read my blog and maybe hop over to Effy’s blog and maybe join the challenge as…
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Messiness
Today’s picture is from Effy Wild’s “Year of Mary” lesson. Each month she does a painting inspired by the poetry of Mary Oliver. This was the lesson for March and it created so many challenges for me. In fact, it’s been sitting on my art cart for about two weeks because I could not get her face done right or to what…
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Release
This is a hard time of year, even though it’s also a good time for me in my life. I’m with someone who adores me and is good for me and to me in many ways. We are working on creating memories together. This is our second Christmas spent together and it’s been nice. Simple and sweet. I really, really…
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three years
Today marks the third year of the day that I made my first attempt to end my life. My life as I knew it was ending. I had no way of knowing at the time how differently beautiful my life would become. I felt completely alone and the only way out that I could see was to end the intense…